Spirit, Remember

I knew from the first moment
You would alter my whole world.
I thought that I was ready
For any curve that life could hurl.
But the truth hits like a hammer,
I am driven to my knees.
I am crushed beneath its blow,
I can not seem to breathe.
A picture of a grain of rice,
Three hidden scars, so small.
A pool of blood, a broken heart,
The only evidence at all,
That you were each a part of me
However brief, one flesh.
My arms, they ache to hold you
Safe and warm against my chest.
I cry, I scream, I don’t know how
I’m going to make it through,
One more day or one more night.
And yet, somehow, I do.
I know someday I’ll meet you.
We must be patient ’til it’s here.
Someday I’ll get to be your Mom
And dry your newborn tears.
Someday I’ll hold you in my arms
And touch your tiny toes.
Someday I’ll kiss you on your hair
And on your little nose.
Someday I’ll look into your eyes
And hear your first sweet laugh.
Today I must find strength to wait
‘Til that day comes to pass.
I knew from the first moment
You would alter my whole world.
When someday comes, I will rejoice
With my boy, and little girl.

By Nicole Bates

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4 Responses to Spirit, Remember

  1. Tom stone says:

    Very profound and moving.

    • Nicole says:

      Thanks! I debated about sharing this one since it’s a true account, and very personal, but I thought it might help somebody else going through the same situation.

  2. Scott Hutchinson says:

    I think this poem may have taken much more courage to write than to post. It is beautifully sad. Thank you for sharing it.

    • Nicole says:

      Thank you for your kind words. Writing, for me, is cathartic. Putting my emotions on paper helps me to let go a little. I appreciate you reading and taking the time to comment Scott!

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